Speech By Saba  

It is three months since my mum was murdered.

But this all still seems so unreal. The lives of my father, brother and me seem to have paused on the 7^th July 2005.  

I cannot believe that an entire summer has passed and we were not able to enjoy it with my mum. Moreover, I just cannot accept I have not heard her voice or felt her soft touch in over twelve weeks. 

I would like to thank the large group of friends my mum had. I thank you all for your support through this time of overwhelming grief and anguish.

As you can imagine right now every minute of every day feels like a struggle.

I feel like am battling with myself, firstly to accept that I will not see my mum again but also to try to rebuild our lives in a way that would make my mum proud of us.

 Today I would like to share with you the memories that I hold of my mum. The fact that she was such an amazing person makes our loss all the more unbearable. 

My mum was the most caring and generous person you could ever meet. I have not to this day met anyone who was not instantly attracted to her warmth. She had a unique quality of making every person she met feel very special. Whenever you were in her presence you always felt you had her full attention and complete focus. It was amazing. My mum always noticed and remembered every detail about everyone. For instance, she would notice if someone had had a new haircut or a new outfit. She would also remember all the details of the last conversation you had had with her. This was remarkable. She made everyone feel important.

 My mum was very passionate about politics and current affairs. I am certain that all of her colleagues will remember her for her strong views on a range of political issues. I will always remember her for her open-mindedness. Mum always asked my opinion on issues. Once she had listened carefully to my views she would challenge those arguments that she did not feel stood up. But she was never too proud to admit she was wrong. This is exactly what made her so special. She was always able to put herself in the shoes of another. I miss the political discussions my mum and I shared.  

In addition to my mum’s compassion she was also very strong. Her devotion to us as her family was evident in everything she did for us on a daily basis. Saeed and I have had the happiest of childhoods. I hope that I can grow to show my mum the importance of this happy childhood as a foundation for the rest of my life. 

The overwhelming feeling I have as I stand before you today is that I miss my mum so very much. We are completely devastated that my mum was taken from us so suddenly and cruelly. I cannot see how our loss has or will serve any purpose. 

My mum loved London. She enjoyed participating in the ‘City Walks’ with her colleagues. She enjoyed all the cultural events that London hosted whether they are art exhibitions or poetry evenings. Mostly though, she was proud to be a part of the ethnic diversity of London. She truly believed in multiculturalism and felt she had a role to play in the diversity of London. I feel strongly that the events of the 7^th of July have shaken the foundations of this multiculturalism. I know my mum would have been very upset by this.

 There is no doubt that life for my dad, Saeed and me will never be the same. We have had the most precious person in our lives so cruelly taken away. 

But we owe it to my mum to continue. I am determined to honour her memory. I am determined to make her proud of me. As a family we will stick together. With the courage that my mum gave us we will get through this unbearable pain. Although our lives have been shattered and our priority is simply to get through each day, together we will remain strong. I hope to grow to be a legacy to my mum’s spirit and strength. 

I feel genuinely privileged to be able to call Nazy Mozakka my mum. And for her love I am truly grateful. I feel honoured that she was my mum. 

Mamun we miss you more with each day that passes.

We will miss you always.

We love you Mamun.

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